Everything Happens For a Reason, I hope!

Just recently, I was turned down for the Teach For America position, that I spent long months applying and preparing for. I can't say that I wasn't disappointed to read the generic "Sorry you did not get it" letter they sent me. It was hard to see my dream of working for Teach For America, and finally being a teacher get dashed, especially with a generic letter. I really had a great feeling about the process, and left the interview feeling like I nailed it. I guess that I didn't impress like I thought I did. I broke down at first from the shock that I didn't get my dream job, and then I cried because I realized how badly I did want it, and how wrong I had been. Later that night I talked to my mom about what had happened, she knew I was upset about missing this opportunity and offered some advice. She said like so many do, "Everything happens for a reason." At first I was annoyed, because I feel that so many people use this logic as a cop-out. But, as I thought it over, maybe everything does happen for a reason, maybe I am meant to do something other than Teach for America, maybe it really wasn't the place for me.

Therefore, I will be attending graduate school starting this summer at the University at Buffalo for a Master's degree in Library and Information Studies with a concentration to be a Media Library Specialist in schools. As soon as I committed myself to this, I have been getting more and more excited. I have enrolled for my classes, started looking at apartments, and have begun looking for part-time jobs in Buffalo. I am excited to be changing directions, going to a brand new place (I have never been to Buffalo), and also getting to spend some time with some wonderful friends! After all, I do love school, and I know that I am going to love this program. I am also so ecstatic at the prospect of being the first in my entire family to get a Master's degree, how amazing is that? I'm looking forward to living in a city, getting to know a new place, and meeting new people. It's been awhile since I have really ventured out, since I went to Oneonta actually, and I am looking forward to this change.

I am really going to miss the people that I have come to know at my job now. There are quite a few that I have come to consider very close friends, and it's sad that I feel I'm just getting to know them and now I have to leave them. Although, there's always Facebook! lol

All in all, maybe things do happen for a reason, and maybe those reasons aren't known to us at the time, but maybe it's all for the best after all. Even if this is complete bullshit, I am going to follow this advice and try to see things from this perspective, because after all what other reasonings have we got? I'm looking to the future, and it looks exciting, new and fresh!