Today, I looked at my loans and all that I have to pay back for an education that I might not even use, a degree that is doing me no good now, and who knows if it might in the future. I pay all this money, put my life in debt, and then I don't even get to use my degree to do what I love, or to pay back those loans. This life, this economy, the way we are set up here in America just makes me want to fight someone sometimes! Tell kids to go to college, and rack up money in loans, and that it'll be okay because they'll have a degree to use. But what they don't tell us is that the economy sucks, unemployment sucks, and that loan people are effing sharks that just want their money no matter what! I am so freaking sick of all this shit, it makes me not want to go to grad school! I just want a job where I can afford to live, to buy food, and to be happy. Is that too much to ask for? Why go to college, when the job I'm doing now doesn't require it?
Just recently, I was turned down for the Teach For America position, that I spent long months applying and preparing for. I can't say that I wasn't disappointed to read the generic "Sorry you did not get it" letter they sent me. It was hard to see my dream of working for Teach For America, and finally being a teacher get dashed, especially with a generic letter. I really had a great feeling about the process, and left the interview feeling like I nailed it. I guess that I didn't impress like I thought I did. I broke down at first from the shock that I didn't get my dream job, and then I cried because I realized how badly I did want it, and how wrong I had been. Later that night I talked to my mom about what had happened, she knew I was upset about missing this opportunity and offered some advice. She said like so many do, "Everything happens for a reason." At first I was annoyed, because I feel that so many people use this logic as a cop-out. But, as...
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